hmm...

alot has happened...dunno where to begin.....

friends keeping distance and lovers falling out...but i still remain the same....lost in time and confusion of unspeakable things....maybe just trying hard to face reality...

well im graduated now, did so on 17/4...thats one thing for sure...very happy to be in fact...i guess thats one thing of the things in life im most happy abt...after God that is... ^^

Photographer - Joanna Lee

Mount Wilson~ Photoshoot by Jenny Sun

The day after, I had a photoshoot with some of my beautiful gfs~ I had so much fun that day...even posing amongst those cold autumn leaves i felt the warmth with their prescence...

 In this last shot, with my sis... is my happiest memory with her...the one where i will remember for the rest of my life...

bumming at work...

thinking abt who i've become.....not liking it.....but then really...who am i?

searching for answers...doesnt want to face reality...

On australia day...

early morning went to Bondi Westfield shopping cenre with b2 and benny. yes yes i know wat ure all thinkin....dinG! oh well its ok...gettin use to it by now ><''

alot of things were on sale......quite good too esp guess stuff..i like..keke..but atm too poor and broke from japan to spend any more money on clothes..dun think ill shop for like agessss...><'' but yeh..

had lunch at the bondi foodcourt...very classy..i like..haha..havin lunch on the veranda enjoyin the sunshine...while eating healthy salads...from that place..with all the salads..it was alrite..i still prefer de cosi salads..

 Hoping the sun wouldnt be as bright, we hit the beach...it was good....relaxing...occasional sea breeze sweeping my face, tingling feelin of sand on my toes and sounds of seagulls by the shore..brings back old memories both sad and joyful....

we just laid there on the beach...for a few hours...trying to get some sleep..well at least b2 and benny did..while i was just mediating on past year and made me realise...alot of things......some which i rather not think about.

after a few hours.. we went to that famous cake store in bondi..the cakes there looked pretty good...very sweet... im still not good at making triple layer cakes...b2 and benny choose coffee cake and i choose the hazenut and choc strudel...i very much like the strudel...not so much the coffee cake since the only coffee part of the cake was the cream..in which i dun like cream so much...sigh..if i only had more machine at home...but yeh..no use if its just made for my sis to eat up lol...if i dun find a job...im definately goin to do more cooking course stuff...really wanted to go into this japanese style cookin..but $90 a day...atm im too poor or else id enrol immediately ><...

later we went bak to central and met up with Kala....went to Norita..Korean drinks and gameboard cafe place...the place is alright...drinks are alrite..nothin that special but yeh..not too bad to try if u havnt been..oh must warn u..they charge u minimum $5 per person ...even though they dun say it...after playin some wierd fruit countin 5 game..they played NDS...for a few hours....i was quite out of it already...then my firend called sayin he was goin to watch fireworks..and so we decided to go as well..but yeh.. as predicted...finished when we got there..sigh...everytime im out..im beginnin to miss him more and more ><

• Elizabeth Arden Shine pops lip gloss
• Lancome Juicy tube Lychee
• Lancome Hydra Zen Anti-stress moisturiser
• Lancome Hydra Intense Hydrating Gel Mask
• Lancome Fatale Mascara
• and lots more lancome products.

had a 2 week clinical placement at RPAH... the ppl there are really nice..^^ i really wanted to go to isoft for placement..but only got my second choice..><

Each day...i was like sent to different ppl/units and see what they do and assist them..with wateva they need doin...hmm can vaguely remeber what i did now..haha..i attended business meetings..to take minutes..part of my report writting...hmm then went to a training session with finace ppl cos they need to know how to use the view only version of Cerner to see Patient information for billing..training was so boring..i didnt even get access to a computer..=.= just sit on the side to watch.....almost fell asleep..if it wasnt for the coffee.......i would be like ZzzzZzz ...which is kinda bad..every day...tehre was free coffee and think ive developed the craving for it.....cos im just extremely tired goin to work everyday..

then i went with discharge ppl and see how the discharges were sort then with records control - did some TDF surprisingly they have a separate records section for antenal clinic for babies and mums at a different level for easier access since they always need to use it..theres like 4 medical records department storage..the older ones are like in bottom level and different level. my friend was tryin to scare me..and say its like..if u die there noone knows..cos its so dark and quiet.>< and shes like have u met the lady..and she points to the ceiling rim and theres like a shadow of an old lady. there which is from water stain or sth....freaky...

..later on...spent a day with bed returns ppl and they made me do some stats and data entry on the comp....then went to medico legal unit...with medico legal manager..saw how they process Doctor's calls and supenas, how to handle releasing of information about patients to people and theres so many process u have to go thru...haha..but yeh..i rather find this more interesting than the rest of the units..

then went with coding manager..man shes soo nice...help me with so many things that i need to write up for the report....but..i hate coding...never start there......and surprisingly she takes everything so easy...unlike the coding cases we have..where everythin is noted..esp the opdx.. =.=''

out of everythin there..i think im most interested in the medico-legal department. if i do work in a hospital..want to be a release of information officer then later a medical manager....and u dun even need a law degree!..just a HIM deg is fine.. but yeh....possibily do a master of health law...ill see what happens..

There was a church that had problems with outsiders 
parking in its parking lots, so they put up a sign: 
 

 CHURCH CAR PARK - FOR MEMBERS ONLY 

Trespassers will be baptized!" 
 
CHURCH SIGN BOARDS: 
"No God - No Peace" 
"Know God - Know Peace." 
 
"Free Trip to Heaven." 
"Details Inside!" 
 
"Try our Sundays." 
"They're better than Dairy Queen's". 

"Searching for a new look?" 
"Have your faith lifted here!" 

"People are like tea bags." 
"You have to put them in hot water before you know 
how strong they are." 
 
"Fight truth decay." 

"Study the Bible daily." 
 

"How will you spend eternity?" 
"Smoking or Non-smoking?" 
 

 "Dusty Bibles lead to Dirty Lives." 

"It is unlikely there'll be a reduction in the wages of sin." 
 
"Do not wait for the hearse to take you to church." 
 
"If you're headed in the wrong direction, God allows U-turns."  
 
"If you don't like the way you were born, try being born again." 

 "Looking at the way some people live, they ought to obtain eternal fire insurance soon." 

"This is a ch_ _ ch." 
"What is missing? - (U R)" 
 
"In the dark?" 
"Follow the Son." 
 
"Running low on faith?" 
"Step in for a fill-up." 
 
"If you can't sleep, don't count sheep." 
"Talk to the Shepherd." 

"Come work for the Lord." 
"The work is hard, the hours are long and the pay is low. But the retirement benefits are out of this world." 
 
An ad for one Church has a picture of two hands holding stone
tablets on which the Ten Commandments are inscribed and a headline that reads, "For fast, fast, fast
relief, take two tablets." 

 When the restaurant next to another Church put out a big sign with red letters that said, "Open Sundays," 
the church reciprocated with its own message: "We are open on Sundays, too." 
 
AND THE WINNER IS ! 
 
- ON THE PASTOR'S PARKING SPOT - 
"PASTOR'S SPOT" 
"YOU PARK, YOU PREACH"

today was exciting...lol..we had a school excursion for Medical Science C - a trip to the Pathology Museum..but guess what the best part is....at our Sydney Uni Main Campus =.='' such a great trip...intially i wasnt goin to go..but eh...might as well.....

got to central and all my friends ditched me cos i was 10 mins late..so annoyed.. hai suen..shows wat great friends i have.......anyway...had to catch the bus to some random place near RPA hospital...and get off there...=='' had to keep asking ppl for directions...never felt so lost before... but..yeh...after..askin abt 10 ppl where the place is..noone knows...=.='' and finally saw one of my other "friend" somewhere and i just followed her....finally got there...the Blackburn Circuit..or sth...

anyway..found the museum..and...it wasnt really a museum as such as it was only 1 room...only thing is that it has 8 walls....especially structured for..displaying diseased body parts which were all preserved into their own separate glass frame. some u can even shake......and u can see bits and pieces of stuff falling out of the body part but its still inside the framed glass thank goodness!! after seeing some of them i really wanted to vomit

anyway..due to...some circumstances i will not upload the pics since it maybe too...disturbing..for ppl to view.

ho mungg arrrrrrrrr ><''........im such a failure.................................sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

forgive me God! ><